I was a bit nervous the night before my MS specialist appointment. I had quite a bit of flare-ups this year and I knew the MRI was going to show anything good. I actually did manage to get some sleep as long as I kept it all out of my thoughts. The next morning I had to pick up a copy of the MRI disc and report for my records. I decided to bit the bullet, which is just how my personality has always been, and look at the reports. By now I have become a bit of a pro at reading MRI reports. A lot of the words are technological so I have basically learned to scan through it and pick up on the words leading to the result. It was a good and not so good report. The lesions on my spine are actually resolving. That is the good part. The not so good part is that now I have some swelling on my left optic nerve. Excuse my bluntness, but this scares the crap out of me. I have already lost sight in my right eye due to optic neuritis so now the fear of losing my left is overwhelming me.
At the visit the physical part of the exam went great. Then he loaded the disc to look at my MRI. He never goes by the report. He likes to see it all for himself. And he has me sit next to him so he can explain to me everything he is seeing. He really is an awesome doctor. He found a small lesion on my brain that is unfortunately in the area that causes vomitting. Well that explains that horrible flare-up. He did show me the swelling on my left optic nerve. I asked him "Am I going to go blind?" He responeded with "That is what we are going to try to prevent in every way that we can." He also looked at my spine images and was happy with the results. The injections I am on seem to be working. And I have only been on them two months. As it goes into it's third months and so on the shots will be at its full effect but already are clearing up my spine. He informed me that hopefully it will start working with my eye. But if there is any changes in sight I need to contact him quickly. I wasn't suppose to go back for another six months but because of the eye he wants another MRI in November along with another visit. He wants to keep a close eye on it, no pun intended, and to compare the MRI's so see how the injections are helping.
So overall it was a good and not so good visit. My sister told me to take it as a positive. She said it looks like the shots are helping and that's a good thing. It takes longer to get to the brain because of the blood brain barrier. She also said with the burning leg pain that might heal also but it will takes some time. So maybe it is a positive visit. I sure hope so. Everytime I dwell on losing my left eye I start with the panic attacks so I try not to think about it much. All I can do is hope and pray at this point. Also I can be as positive as I can and keep myself stress free. Positivity and less stress does have a great impact on the body and mind.