Dealing with a chronic illness or any other type of an extremely stressful situation does leave behind emotional scars. Some of this scars just do go into hibernation. They continually cause mental suffering on a daily basis. This is true for me. Lately, my emotional scars have decided to play a riveting game of "let's screw with her feeling daily." On a daily basis I experience at least one anxiety/panic attach. And for any of those people out there reading this has had them then they know this just is not a fun game at all. It's fucking horrible. I have to laugh a bit about it though because the whole time I was going through a tornado of doctors, medications, tests, and awful flare-ups I handled it very well emotionally. Now that the waves have stopped crashing and soothed down, that is when my mind decides to go into panic mode. I always thought I have a knack for doing things ass backwards but this one takes the cake.
So many, many people everywhere deal with emotional issues such as depression, maniac behavior, bi-polar, anxiety, and so on. It is an every day battle dealing with those thoughts that just screw up our way of thinking and acting. You even tell yourself to snap out of it but that never works. A lot of people see mental disorders as not a real type of illness because it's all in our heads. Well, guess what? My Devic's Syndrome can't be seen on the outside so is that all in my head too? Mental disorders are far too real and far too dangerous to be left untreated. Now I am not saying medication for mental disorders is a cure all and should be given away like Tic-Tacs. It takes a combination of maybe some medicine, therapy, and daily exercises to re-train your way of thinking. I always said it takes a lot more work to change a frame of mind than the frame of your body.
So many of us suffer silently out of shame. But being in complete solitude with our mental illness just makes it worse. We need to start supporting people more with mental disorders. We need to try to understand them better. It's easier to do this if you have gone or are going through it yourself but it is very hard for someone who never had a mental disorder to try to grasp the reality of it. If you know anyone in your own life who shows some signs of something like this please be there for them and try to help them find the help they need. Just one act of kindness could change someone's whole world. You may not be the person who changes the world but you will always be the person who changed that one person's whole world. And that is something glorious!